So I told you guys a few weeks back how I wanted to go to this kinky festival with Ludo (the French guy I’ve been seeing) but Flo wasn’t totally comfortable with it.
This caused a pretty big conflict inside.
On one hand, I like, really really really wanted to go. And I didn’t think he needed to worry. Furthermore, he didn’t expressly forbid me from going.
On the other hand, he was overwhelmed by the thought of it.
And at first, I thought, I should go anyway — I shouldn’t let my relationship stop me from doing something awesome
And then I thought about it more, and I realized this is what I do in every relationship.
I leave the guy to go move to Singapore.
Or travel the world.
Or live in new york city and hit on men in suits..
It’s always been about what I want to do.
And that’s why I’ve never been in a relationship for more than two years.
And I realized this ruthless drive to pursue what I desire relates back to my relationship with my mother. Here’s more on that.
In other news, Flo and I went to that kinky party last week with Ludo and his partner. The people there were really friendly. We both flirted with other people but mainly stuck with each other the whole night.
The party was pretty innocent overall. People were interacting sexually here and there but I would say there was much more talking and dancing going on than sexy stuff.
Oh, and I met my metamour! The long story short is that I get why Flo likes her. :)
More on this next week.
<3
Sarah
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