I hope everyone in the U.S. had a nice holiday weekend.
This past weekend I decided to YOLO over to an Ayahuasca retreat outside of Berlin. Long story short it was an extremely powerful experience that I can’t really totally explain in an email.
But one thing I took away from it is how beautiful it is when people come together and really use their voices to sing, powerfully, from their chest with heart and meaning.
I want more of that.
And I can’t help but think about it in relation to sex.Â
It’s similar. You are with yourself, feeling your body, expressing yourself, feeling pleasure through what your body is doing in the presence of another person or people who are doing the same thing.
And through hearing them with themselves in their own bodies, (passionately singing/feeling pleasure) you are able to enjoy yourself and your own body even more. And it’s a self-reinforcing loop that can grow and grow with intensity and can be extremely beautiful.
In other news, last night I went out again with the Frenchmen. We went to a secret spot by the Spree (the big river in Berlin) and then we walked to get some Vietnamese food.
Overall it was a really nice night. Ludo is a great person— so attentive, and sweet and I enjoy talking with him. Although I feel he’s a shy one and there’s much more I can pull out of him.
I also am still hesitant about having sex. I still feel like I need to get to know him a little better and I think something else might be stopping me….
I fear if things get more intense with Ludo, it might affect my relationship with Flo. It hasn’t yet at all, at least not negatively, but I still fear it would. And that’s scary.
But there’s another part of me that feels like this is a positive thing no matter what happens.
Until next we meet, my friends.
With love to you— may you find your inner voice and sing
xoxo Sarah
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Articles this week
6 Reasons Sex at 32 Is Way Better Than It Was at 22
It’s all about getting over those roadblocks that prevent you from enjoying
And from Sophie Rose, a new writer on the Monogamish pub (I found this article really informative!):
10 Things That Suprised Me About Swingers
Since our first trip to Hedonism three years ago, the swinging community has been full of surprises.