Is this the life you really want?

Or just a stand-in?

Apr 7

Last week, I did a one-week digital detox and after a few days of nothing, I could really feel my brain start to slow down.

I still feel the zen. More chill. Like this is the frequency I’m meant to be operating in.

I also realized that, before this break, I was punishing myself for no good reason.

I was convincing myself I was poor when really, I’m not. (Even though I’m not making consistently good money now, I was a programmer for years and saved a lot.)

I was building this picture of myself as this starving artist who needs to work her ass off to get out of the poor hole and will stop at nothing until she gets there even if she suffers along the way.

But that is bullshit.

I can do whatever I want. I’m free. It’s up to me to live the life I want to live.

Right now.

The life I was living wasn’t for me

I don’t want to be in an office the whole day, and when I’m not in the office, thinking about what I’m going to write about next, writing down every single thing that happens, as I was doing before. That is not the life I want to live. So why the hell am I living it?

Here’s what a great life sounds like for me:

Writing or creating other helpful stuff 3-4 hours per day. Maybe taking off Fridays. Doing it all because I want to, not because there’s a fire on my ass. Spending at least an hour per day reading and/or learning and much of rest my day just staring into space, not thinking about anything, maybe taking a walk, enjoying nature, doing yoga. Being peaceful.

That’s the life I want. And that’s the life I’m going to start living now. And it’s going to be great.

Thank you all so so much for those who took the new survey! Seriously.

You guys are awesome and it means so much that you took that time. There’s a lot of really insightful, interesting, helpful, and eye-opening stuff in there. It’s touching, really.

If you haven’t taken it yet, please do so now! This is your last chance.

Last chance for survey