So Flo came over last Thursday after his date and told me about it. And I felt super envious.
It made me feel like I was five years old again. Like when my older brother got something that I didn’t.
Here’s how I’m processing my complicated feelings.
Another date for me
Remember the French guy I’d been on a few dates with (Ludo)? The last time I’d seen him was during winter and lockdown.
The weather was bad and it was cold and rainy and there was nothing to do, so I’d invited him to my place.
But it was awkward. I felt pressure to get intimate and I wasn’t sure if I was attracted to him anymore.
That said the date we’d had before that, when we’d walked around outside was really nice. And I definitely was attracted to him then.
So long story short, I want to give it another chance. So this evening we are getting ice cream. I think he’s a nice guy and even if we just hang out as friends, that would be great for me.
I’m looking forward to seeing him.
*Also for the record, I’d told Flo I was thinking of contacting Ludo before Flo had asked me about seeing Kathryn again. But I do think Flo’s date encouraged me to actually go through with setting up a time to meet. I think I felt freer to contact Ludo after knowing Flo would go on his date.Â
xoxo
Sarah
At a cafe, today, finishing this story :)
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