Can I say I think ur sexy?

Or does that cross a boundary?

I was out the other night and a guy I used to date was there.

He’s now in a monogamous relationship, which I totally respect. This is what he wants.

Yet, yet, I can’t deny I’m still very attracted to him and being around him just “catching up” while he was wearing this electric blue blazer that his body was almost too long for, I just wanted him. Point blank.

There was no denying it. Nothing I could to do stop it. It just was.

And as I was trying to just breathe through it and like accept the desire washing over me was not to be expressed, I couldn’t help but also wonder, Is that totally true?

I don’t mean trying to mess up his relationship, or bring them into non-monogamy so we can hook up. No no no.

It was more in the sense, Do I really have to just stamp on this flame continuously or is there an outlet for me to just… I don’t know…

Tell him how I feel?

Would that be so wrong?

The dominant culture based on what I sense implicitly would say, “Yes, this is wrong.”

We do not tell other’s people’s boyfriends we find them sexy. That is crossing a boundary.

But but but.